Do you ever feel lost?
When you look forward to life handing you lemons, you know something is wrong. (Also, what a weird saying. Are lemons that bad of a gift?)
I know that life can’t always be sunshine and rainbows, but when that rain doesn’t seem to let up, it makes you wonder how long it’s going to last.
Moving into our house last year was so exciting! My wife and I worked so hard to fix our credit, get our finances in order, and then to find a home in the climate of house hunting last year? We could not have been luckier to find the house that we did for our big family.
Then spring happened.
And with spring came a bevy of problems. We had a leak in our ceiling, which was a chore to get done. But, it got done. Then we bought a pool for the family, which was the most draining experience I think I’ve ever dealt with (even moreso than my divorce.) We also were dumb and forgot to put down our gutters when we had two of the heaviest rainy days and our basement flooded a bit. Quick fix, but not what we were wanting. And then in the heat of the summer, our AC unit went out. And we had to deal with no AC in our humid summer for just about a month. It was absolute torture to sit and be miserable when we should be able to enjoy it. (Maybe if someone could’ve set the pool up faster 🤷🏻)
And even before all of this I was dealing with some family stuff that was very difficult to deal with. I can’t delve into it, just know that as a parent it has been a challenging year.
Cut to the last couple weeks and the parent drama has gotten worse. My four year old fridge stopped cooling and it was out of warranty. Our boiler stopped working and we needed heat since it snowed. And our floor drain is stuck firmly to the floor, which I found out when I tried to drain my water heater. Then, last week, my rear windshield blew up when I closed my trunk. It was too much. And I cried.
I cried at work because the stress was too much. I let all of this get to me and I just broke down. I blew up at work and almost lost my job. I tried to learn how to fix these things as a homeowner should and when I could not get it I got mad.
Beyond mad.
I stopped caring about life. I am in a Discord group with some great people and I ignored them for a week. I stopped caring about my show and trying to get anything done. I stopped doing stuff at home and just got lost in TikTok or slept.
Thankfully, my wife was able to take me at my worst and talk me off the ledge. It was a hard conversation and some self reflection was definitely needed, but we got there. And now there’s a light. I see it and I’m working towards it.
Life sucks sometimes, there’s no getting around it. It’s difficult to find the energy to keep going, but in the end, these bumps in the road are simply that – bumps. But, I forgot that I have a huge team of people who are able to lend an ear and a shoulder, and that’s the lesson.
~ Garret
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